Ephesians 6:12: For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in heavenly places.
What does it mean to be spiritually attacked or to encounter spiritual warfare?
Once you have accepted Christ, your life will change for the better. He gives you the desire to live right (you don’t want to do the same things you used to do), learn more about Him and His word, and even puts you on a narrow path where you continuously have to leave things (and people) behind in order for you to get where He needs you to be.
However, Satan doesn’t like that one bit. He wants to keep his foot on top of your head--just keep your mouth shut, live in fear, continue doing drugs, continue hating others, keep feeling confused and worried, etc. He misses the old you because you were easier to control back then. And now you want to change? Hmph!
In 2013, I started developing a relationship with Jesus once He started giving me a desire to read the Bible. At the same time, I was trying to decide if I should end a toxic relationship and also dealing with self-esteem issues. He began to speak to me and show me that He loved me and that there was nothing wrong with me. He encouraged me and helped me change the way I viewed myself. He helped me develop confidence and I began to do things that I would’ve never thought of doing (co-hosting a radio show, co-authoring a book, purchasing a car, etc.). I really felt like my life was beginning to change and was excited to have Jesus in my life.
Satan had been attacking me off and on with feelings of fear and inferiority, but I would always fight against those negative thoughts and seek God in prayer and His word. Sometimes the attacks would get me down, but I would always get right back up.
A few weeks ago, the attacks became more fierce and frequent; I believe it was because I was becoming confident enough to pray for others on a weekly prayer line that I had joined. I was also learning to pray for people who had hurt me, something I thought I’d never be able to do. I tried to fight but the attacks became increasingly difficult and I found myself feeling sad, angry, afraid, insecure, and discontented about my life. During this time, I was also missing my ex and those old, negative feelings about myself started to creep back in. I didn’t understand why I was feeling this way but part of me knew that I was being attacked and wasn’t sure if I should even continue to fight anymore. Why was Jesus allowing me to go through this? Did He care about me after all? Was he angry with me?
After sharing my experience with a good friend of mine, she helped me to realize that Jesus does love me; in fact, he never stopped loving me. He hears me every time I pray and tells me not to worry and to trust Him. He has shown me that we encounter difficulties because they help us to become mature and build our strength. If our lives were always comfortable and problem-free, not only would we remain stagnant but I believe we would take Jesus for granted; we wouldn’t appreciate Him if He gave us everything we wanted or made our lives easy.
Signs of spiritual attacks:
Sometimes we may experience tragedies or unexpected trials (like losing a loved one or getting laid off from your job, etc.) that may cause us to question God or become angry with Him—“why am I going through this? This isn’t fair!” And that’s exactly what Satan wants us to do—to get discouraged, lose hope, turn away from Jesus, and return to our old ways.
So what can you do during these times?
Remember that God loves each and every one of us and wants nothing but the best for us; when you've been in a difficult situation before, how did you get through it? Did your parents (or someone else) make it all go away? Or did that experience help you to appreciate what you went through? Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
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